Do i belong in mental hospital?

even though you wouldn't do it is it normal to think about it, i get these thoughts in my head of raping little kids, beheading them and raping their neck and using the blood as lubricant, then i rip out their organs and grind them up in a blender and use it as lubricant for my next victim. and in real life i torture animals and put them in the blender and use them as lubricant